[she was sort of asking because she wanted to know about basilio. she wasn't there for the part with kaworu, but still still instantly understands, nods.]
I won't. You can tell anyone anything, for me as well.
[yeah. he looked extremely bad, and then he cried, which was so alarming even though she was also crying]
I just couldn't think clearly, for whatever reason. Someone I trust told me to go ahead and do what was needed, so I did. And it took me a while, to even notice that it didn't make sense.
[ yeah, he hasn't really cried before. not for a long time, anyway. certainly not here. not even when hawke died - his wells of grief are deep and dark, but he's not a crier. maybe it's not the worst thing if it happened. ]
[you guys. even though everything is awful, it's nice to have this - to know that whatever those feelings are that linger from a life that never existed, everyone still has them. those childhood friendships feel like they mattered.]
[ its probably a little sick and wrong, considering they were killed horribly and also it was a nightmare adventure with a sewer clown, but there's something a little nice about having two people now that he feels as if he's known for a lifetime who haven't died or left or hate his guts. they've known each other about a month but also since they were children. ]
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I won't. You can tell anyone anything, for me as well.
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It's your story to tell, as it is.
[ ... ]
If you the two of you want your distance from me, I understand.
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Not doin' that.
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[which, for the record, is absolutely wretched. she's never going to stop feeling shame and horror at the memory of what happened.]
And I for one am tired of letting people who only want to hurt me dictate to me who I must be.
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... They made me Tranquil. I didn't feel anything about it, while I was doing it.
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I just couldn't think clearly, for whatever reason. Someone I trust told me to go ahead and do what was needed, so I did. And it took me a while, to even notice that it didn't make sense.
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... I'm glad you were both there. At the end.
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Appreciated you both goin' down into that sewer with me before too. Don't think I was in any state to say so at the time.
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[you guys. even though everything is awful, it's nice to have this - to know that whatever those feelings are that linger from a life that never existed, everyone still has them. those childhood friendships feel like they mattered.]
I'm glad, too.
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[ its probably a little sick and wrong, considering they were killed horribly and also it was a nightmare adventure with a sewer clown, but there's something a little nice about having two people now that he feels as if he's known for a lifetime who haven't died or left or hate his guts. they've known each other about a month but also since they were children. ]