[ . . . maybe. yves just runs his hand through that, laughing hollowly. ]
I'm getting tired of killing my friends, Del. [ weakly. tiredly. why does this keep happening to him? normally he can have it together but this specific wound festers so badly for him ]
... you don't have to apologize. I get it.
[ he wasn't thinking of the vote at all. he was just thinking about trying to save someone he loved. maybe he really is reckless. ]
[ well, he's certainly not the only who's tired of that.
fidelio looks at him for a moment, then sighs softly as he looks ahead again. ]
You know, if you do end up in a situation like this again, you can tell me about it, and I'll help you work out a game plan. Don't gotta carry everything on your own shoulders.
[ . . . he smiles faintly at that, nodding. there is a pulse of gratitude, amongst everything else. a little bit of wonder, surprised that del is even giving him the time of day ]
... okay. [ softly ] I just... didn't think it'd come to this. Maybe that's my own lack of foresight. She was just... so scared, and she was nervous to trust even me. She made me promise not to tell anyone, and I said I'd ask the angels about what the risks were.
[ and he got his answer... well. at trial. with everyone else. ]
But... if somehow it ends up like this again, I'll rely on you.
[ to be fair, he's killed a lot more people for much less noble reasons, so he'd have absolutely no room to judge killing someone to save them from themselves.
...and he's regretting now that he didn't press this further with firefly while they were on the subject last week. maybe things could have happened differently. less blood on both her hands and yves's. not that thinking about that now helps anything. ]
Good.
[ reaches over to pat his back... and just leaves his hand there for a little bit. ]
...Anyway, we did still find both killers this week, and neither of 'em are gonna have to worry about gettin' forced into hurting people again after this. Don't need to beat yourself up too badly, as long as you've learned from the mistakes.
[ ah... the pat at his back comes as a surprise and he tenses for a moment before he does relax. it's... nice. it's nicer than he deserves, but he's truly too greedy to push away the kindness right now. he sighs out heavily ]
I'll try not to.
[ . . . he will be stuck with his emotions, but. he will try. ]
It's... reassuring to know that they just go somewhere safe with all the others, at least. I just wish it didn't have to be so painful.
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I'm getting tired of killing my friends, Del. [ weakly. tiredly. why does this keep happening to him? normally he can have it together but this specific wound festers so badly for him ]
... you don't have to apologize. I get it.
[ he wasn't thinking of the vote at all. he was just thinking about trying to save someone he loved. maybe he really is reckless. ]
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fidelio looks at him for a moment, then sighs softly as he looks ahead again. ]
You know, if you do end up in a situation like this again, you can tell me about it, and I'll help you work out a game plan. Don't gotta carry everything on your own shoulders.
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... okay. [ softly ] I just... didn't think it'd come to this. Maybe that's my own lack of foresight. She was just... so scared, and she was nervous to trust even me. She made me promise not to tell anyone, and I said I'd ask the angels about what the risks were.
[ and he got his answer... well. at trial. with everyone else. ]
But... if somehow it ends up like this again, I'll rely on you.
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...and he's regretting now that he didn't press this further with firefly while they were on the subject last week. maybe things could have happened differently. less blood on both her hands and yves's. not that thinking about that now helps anything. ]
Good.
[ reaches over to pat his back... and just leaves his hand there for a little bit. ]
...Anyway, we did still find both killers this week, and neither of 'em are gonna have to worry about gettin' forced into hurting people again after this. Don't need to beat yourself up too badly, as long as you've learned from the mistakes.
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I'll try not to.
[ . . . he will be stuck with his emotions, but. he will try. ]
It's... reassuring to know that they just go somewhere safe with all the others, at least. I just wish it didn't have to be so painful.